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40 Seconds Love Story

I am still here. I have not disappeared from blogging but rather, I have too many posts which I deemed as too personal to be shared. However, I have been reading back my old blog posts and I must say, it was a journey on its own for myself! I have laughed, felt how negatively I felt at a few points and most importantly, I actually said:

Good job for saying that into his/her face. 

As you can/may guess it, I have forgotten a lot of which happened back then. At times, halfway through reading, I muttered:

Didn’t I say anything to slap this idiot back in his/her face?? 

And when I did, I was pleased. Lol. Memang tak serik-serik saya. Also, this shows how much I have changed. Got la. Not much. So I guess for now I am pretty constant. Hahaha! Anyway, today’s topic is about my 40 seconds love story. Saddest part? Probably the shortest love story ever. Happiest part? My heart fluttered for a second.

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One evening on 21st September 2016, I was in front of my computer writing my thesis while going crazy. Then, my phone rang. I looked at it and I didn’t recognize the number on my phone.

Me: Hello? *Praying it’s not someone I know whose number I happily deleted by accident* 

Caller: Hello Sam?

At this point, my heart fluttered for a second. DUDE VOICE SOUNDED DAMN NICE. IT’S CRAZY. I KNOW. And I panicked because anyone who calls me Sam are probably people who know me well/close enough to me and like can be super offensive la if I really didn’t save/deleted their numbers. I was thinking to myself which of my guy friend has such a nice voice? The last person I knew who has such nice voice has been disowned by me for now.

Me: Yes?

Caller: Sam??

Me: Yes? Who are you? *Damn blatant hahaha but I really don’t know who it is!* 

Caller: *Laughs* This is Jeff here. Are you still in the office? *Dude probably thinks I am pulling his leg* 

Me: Excuse me? Jeff?

I was like what office, I am at home! Anyway, I actually clicked and typed on my Facebook search bar – JEFF, only to see a whole list of people I don’t remember/know. I got confused and panicked. Who is this Jeff who knows me? Shit happens okay. If it’s right out in public, I can pretend to not see that person or just wave and quickly walk away in a hurry without saying hello. This is on the phone! To suddenly hang up is like quite rude so anyway, we continue:

Caller: Samantha right?

Me: Yes. You are? 

Caller: Jeff Ong/Leong 

Me: Huh? *I was hoping he would say I’m Jeff from _____. Like, shed some light for me la then I can go oooooooo* 

Caller: *Silent* I think I got the wrong number. Sorry. 

Me: Okay. 

That’s it. I was disappointed because it was a wrong number. He has such nice voice. Hahaha! The whole conversation took 40 seconds thus, this is my 40 seconds love story. Okay la, I did add his number to my contact list to see if he has WhatsApp [For the sake of viewing profile picture]. And he has! So I viewed his picture and horror of horrors… He is a decent looking man with facial features similar to people whom I do not want to remember anymore. Quickly, I deleted the number from my contact list and cleared my phone calls history.

And that’s how the story ended. Sorry for the disappointment if you are hoping for anything more.

Love or Infatuation

I shouldn’t have clicked on it. Now, I am looking at your picture and all the more I felt like we are meant to be. Like, YOU AND I TOGETHER AND WE ARE MEANT TO BE FOR NOW – why wouldn’t everyone else think so too? Why are people telling me that this is just an infatuation? Why?

I really like you but I know sooner or later, I might fall out of love with you so perhaps this is just an infatuation? But how is it that my heart says it’s love? I picture us being together, going everywhere together and we will definitely look so good together. I know people would love you but they think that we are not good for each other.

Is this another Romeo and Juliet love story? Is this another heartbreak that I have to go through? Do I really walk away from you? Should I just discard your picture when all I want is just to have you, to be yours and you to be mine. I really am crazy right now.

My heart says drop everything and go for it but my brain says you cannot handle my fickleness and I wouldn’t be loyal. How do we go about this? How can we be together? I need faith and strength to go through this. I will be crazier [Because I am already crazy] anytime soon if I don’t decide. What if you are not mine? What if you are meant to be with someone else? I don’t know how you feel towards me so please, let me know soon. Give me a sign or a hint, I promise to look out for it.

Ah… What do I do now to be yours?

#onlineshopping

#thingsonlineshoppingdotome

Tips On Surviving 1 Week Of Hell/Torture [Minggu Haluansiswa]

This post was written by me on 29th December 2010 when I was still a freshman. I did not publish it back then because it might cause me a great deal of trouble with no hostel to stay. Now that I have graduated, I say – who cares anymore for now =P .

P/S: Pictures all from Google Images unless you see my face in it…. =P

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I am going to be nice today so as to share some survival tips for Minggu Haluansiswa or well known as orientation in University of Malaya. Any incoming juniors next year, do take note of this especially if you are coming into 7th College/Kolej Kediaman Ketujuh/KK7/Kolej Kediaman Za’ba of University of Malaya. You have been well informed in this post [Click here] that MHS is a hell of a time in UM.

So yea, I am going to tell you about the important stuff that you need to bring and what do you need to do so that you can be more well prepared. Am I being nice?! Yes I am! So let me know if you are going to be my course junior or anything else, I’ll be all happy to help you out after going through a big hoo-haa around in one year while watching all the dramas going on.

Right, here we go; survival tips for MHS and these facts, are based on my own experience and it may differ for different colleges:

a) Do not straighten or colour or perm your hair a week before or a day before MHS unless you want to cry your eyes out during MHS. During MHS, we are forced to tie and pin up our hair. So if you don’t mind your newly straighten hair being bent later, then sure, go ahead and straighten it.

Also, it is very unlikely that you can wash your hair during MHS unless your hair is super short or else you risk tying your hair while its wet or sleep with your wet hair. It is your choice anyway. 

b) Do not try to be funky during MHS like wearing huge earrings while playing basketball or wearing extremely huge hair accessories. You are not allowed on any kind of jewelry except any religious jewelry and watches. Other than that, keep it at home if you stay nearby or chuck it inside your locker if you stay far away. Whatever it is, do not wear them during MHS because you will be ask to remove them.

c) Do not be rude to your roommates because you are going to stay with them for a year unless you want to move out immediately after MHS.

d) Let the Pembantu Mahasiswa know as soon as possible during MHS that you do not wish to stay on college so that they do not charge you for the whole year. This news, is not confirmed [I heard rumours here and there by the way @_@], but from what I’ve heard, if you seriously do not want to stay in college after MHS because your house is a 5 minutes away from UM, then let the Pembantu Mahasiswa know about it so that they can figure out a way for you.

Just refer to the Pembantu Mahasiswa if you have any doubts and fear them not, they are supposed to be fearful of you because your health and safety is their responsibility. So torture them as much as you want so that you will feel better when they torture you by taking away an hour of your sleep at night.

e) You cannot pick your roommates in 7th College so forget about telling your friend(s) who got 7th College that you can be roommates. One room will be shared with 3 person [Usually same race will be in the same room], there will be a single bed and a double decker bed. If you want the single bed, then come early and stop whining if you don’t get the single bed because IT DOESN’T MATTER AT ALL/IT IS VERY UNIMPORTANT!

But my suggestion is this, if your roommate is staying far away and you are staying nearby [And is very likely to go home every week], then please, be courteous and give in the single bed to that roommate because it is very likely he/she will have many stuff with her and usually, single bed always have the biggest area.

Also, you will be given the hostel which is nearest to your faculty. But if you are unlucky, you might get one that is far from your hostel too. So it all depends on your luck but if you are not a medical field student, rule 6th College the 5 star hostel in UM out of your dreams and be prepared for a sucky hostel and room.

You have been warned and keep your expectations as low as possible, especially about the study table where it is all joined up you have to divide that tiny table into 3 tinier portion. So yea… Now you know =P…

f) Bring a small bottle of portable dish wash liquid so that you can wash your own food container without fighting with the others.


g) For the Chinese, bring your own fork and spoon. It is not provided. So please remember this one unless you are like me, who don’t mind eating with hands because I am lazy to wash my fork and spoon.

Please remove all of this before MHS +_+… You WILL NOT have the time to take care of your nails.

h) Remove all your nail polish and forget about manicure and pedicure and whatever cure for your nails. Just, keep your nails empty during MHS and you can be as funky as you like after MHS.

This type of shoe is gonna make your feet hurt like hell when you run and do exercises and chances are, the Pembantu Mahasiswa are going to make you change your shoes. Yea, you can that you don’t have any other pair but I don’t know the consequences la.

i) Bring your shoes and when I say shoes, I mean shoes that you can run in it and don’t get blisters in it. I am serious with you. There are girls who wear ballet flat shoes that looks like sport shoes style [Girls, you know what I am talking about] and mind you, you are going to RUN in those shoes so yea, no one is gonna sympathize if you get blisters or your toes/feet hurt or your shoes are new. No one gives a damn so please be practical.

Yi Han is wearing the round neck MHS shirt and for half formal attire top, you can wear one like mine [The top =) ] in this photo.

j) You will be required to wear half formal attires during certain events and you are not allowed to wear skirts at all and not even formal skirts so please chuck them all inside your cupboard at home if you staying nearby or in your locker or bag.

For half formal attires, I suggest that you bring 2-3 black slacks and some collar Polo like T-shirt. The shirt doesn’t have to be of formal shirt material [You don’t want to run/sweat for 30 minutes in that formal shirt] but it can be a T-shirt material so long as it has a collar. The keyword for dressing up during MHS is comfort and always be practical. Be unpractical all you want after MHS but don’t torture yourself during MHS.

k) Bring cologne, perfume and anything to make yourself/your orientation shirt smell nice so that you don’t choke yourself.

l) There will be a session where they will make you get signatures from the Pembantu Mahasiswa. Ah, I say forget about doing this. I got about 9 signatures out of 30 I think and I couldn’t be bothered anymore and I regretted [One of my biggest regrets ever] getting even the 9 signatures. If you are so afraid, then go get 1-2 signatures and then forget about it because in the end, everyone gets punished and the punishment are usually half squat with you holding your name tag high up like some prisoner/slave/idiot for an hour or so [This normally takes place during midnight. Now you know]. 

m) In 7th college, electrical items that are allowed are ONLY handphone and laptop charger and they are charged as follow; RM10 for handphone charger and RM20 for laptop charger. You will be given this card that says that you have registered for whatever charger and it will be charged into your account later on.

If you cheat and tell them that you do not have a laptop when you actually have one in your room, then it is at your own risk if they have spot checks at the most un-God-ly hour like 2-3am in the morning when the semester starts and your laptop is being confiscated. Other electrical items like bread toaster, rice cooker, hair dryer, hair curler and whatever that you intend to bring are NOT allowed and they can be confiscated but if you are sure that you can hide them in your room, then bring them at your own risk.

I did not say that you will not be caught or you will be caught but the chances are there. It is all at your OWN RISK and I shall bear no responsibility for it. I brought my hair dryer by the way if that makes you feel better =P. 

n) They will try to scare you a lot during MHS with a lot of rules BUT I am here to tell you, fear not! If you don’t believe me, just wait and see. You will see all sort of nonsense around @_@… 

o) Forget about bringing your jeans during MHS as it is not allowed but you can wear jeans to your classes after MHS so don’t worry too much about clothing issues as long as it is decent.

p) Bring your own permanent marker, pen, scissors and glue during MHS because you are going to label a lot of your stuff and stick a lot of your own passport size photographs and fill in a lot of forms so stop being another irritating bugger who borrow other people’s stuff all the time. Just get a small size glue stick and that will last you for the rest of your university life.

q) Please remember to bring your own passport size photograph and the background is BLUE in colour and not white, grey or anything else. If you forget to bring or the passport size photograph background is of a funkier colour other than blue, then, good luck to you, the Pembantu Mahasiswa are going to snap a photograph of you ala passport size during MHS [You will be called out] and you can have that photo of your pale, tired, sleepy face/eyes plastered on your matric/student card.

YES!! The passport size photographs that you give is the one that will be on your matric card so please be practical and take a nice photo of yourself [Like mine! Hahaha!!! xD] and don’t try to have it in a different background colour other than blue! The key phrase here is, don’t act smart lo.

r) Bring another food container. So that you can transfer all the food that they gave you into that food container and take a quick bath. But whatever it is, plan your own timetable well as long as you are comfortable with it.

s) For the girls, bring extra underclothes just in case you don’t have time to wash or use pantyliners if you must. For the guys, I don’t know ’cause I’m not a guy =P.

t) Forget about using UM wi-fi on your handphone without a username and password which will be your Perdana/Siswa Mail ID later on [P/S: I heard from someone that the ID: test and password: test works =X… ]. And yes, please pick your E-mail address name appropriately because that is what you are going to use for the rest of your studying period in UM.

So if you put cutiepie1110, it will appear as cutiepie1110@siswa.um.edu.my when you send an E-mail to your lecturers and you will be using the ID cutiepie1110 and the same password to login to the student portal to check your account balance status and everything else including the access of UM wi-fi.

u) If you are sick or not feeling well or having any illness like heart attack, asthma, high bloody pressure whatever, let the Pembantu Mahasiswa know and DO NOT hide any illness because if they make you run later and you faint or worst, die, then well, I will say no point risking your life like that although the Pembantu Mahasiswa are scary most of the time [Looks scary but behind the scene, some of them are nothing more than a coward =) ].

v) Please bring your own toilet slippers. You are going to bathe with your slippers on and don’t whine about no hot water. THERE IS NO HOT WATER for you to bathe so live with that. And oh, no air-cond in your rooms too and keep your windows close at all time unless you want the monkeys to enter and poo and pee around, then go ahead and leave it open wide.

Also, bring your own toiletries like toothbrush, toilet papers and stuff like that. Haiyo, common sense lo this one but wait and watch, there are bound to be some idiots who do not bring all this stuff. Most importantly, get a nice small basket where you can throw all your toiletries in when you take a bath and make sure it has a holder where you can hang it on the tap when you are bathing. And no, you won’t have your own personal toilet. It’s a dorm style toilet with individual cubicles so live and deal with it.

w) Keep your doors closed and lock at all times even if you are going to the toilet just for a second.

All in all, I know some of them are more like survival tips in UM, but at least, expect for the worst during MHS and enjoy your time in UM after that! Study hard and play hard at the same time and ignore all dumb activities if you think it is not worth your time. People are gonna boycott and hate you for not joining any activities but here’s the another catch, people will boycott and hate you one way or another without you doing anything as well. Sometimes even if you join one billion activities, you are gonna be boycotted and hated too.

You don’t have to bother what people have to say about you because no matter how good you may be, people still gossip about you. So yea, live with that and enjoy your life in UM! =D

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The Colourful & Artsy Letter

The final letter whose result was a tie to The Letter [View the poll here] was written by Ee Jane to me back in 2007 upon our graduation. Haha! Tak sangka our letters can also have same result. Say YAY to telepathy for now! xD

The letter was four A4 pages long and there are absolutely no empty space left! Hahahaha! I love long letters because they are always so thoughtful. I really can’t remember where, when and how did she give me this letter. It doesn’t comes with an envelope because I kept it in a special file. Until today, her letter cannot be folded at all because it came unfolded so I don’t intend to fold it as well =P…

She gave me the nickname Hunny Bunny and Polar Bear but until today, only Polar Bear stuck to me =P. It’s kinda true that nicknames that she gave people stuck to them but whatever nicknames we gave her, we will actually forget about it until we need to use it. The full story of her first paragraph can be found in the first paragraph of this post here. Good thing that I blogged about it before! =P

Kesian saya, first paragraph also sudah kena blame hahahaha! It is a norm now that whenever something happens, it is always never her fault. Everyone will either blame it on Nano or someone else =P. Seems like it is a good thing that our friendship circle expanded… Can blame someone else =P !! The number of times that we gaduh in Convent is EPIC. It is so epic that I don’t even how many times or even what we argued about! I guess we are both forgetful people so yea, sudah lupa hahahahaha! xD

It’s true that we trust each other a lot [For now] and I would never dream/think that she would do anything wrong to me. Even if she did, she is quick to admit her mistake. We both promised each other that we will always be on each other’s number one friendship list no matter what happened. I don’t know why and how we made this promise but I think it is all this sesat stuff that keeps our friendship till today.

I like how she says we are both meant to learn from one another. I learnt from her that having a big heart enough to forgive people is actually not that tough. I do admit that I am not the most forgiving person around but I try [And fail most of the time]. Also, I have learnt from her that we have to stand up for our own rights and speak up for ourselves if we are ever oppressed. I really salute this woman’s bravery.

Ee Jane just implied in her letter that I wasn’t very understanding hehe! I do believe that I am much more understanding now after being so ignorant and selfish for so many years. Haha! I think I wanna salute all my best friends [Past and present] for bearing with me. Today, I try to think more before I talk or do anything but it can be really challenging. I would say that I am very spontaneous and I will only think if I have to think. If I don’t have to think, I would not think at all.

Does this makes you wonder what I think about all day long? I think about money and other bimbo stuff if that pleases you! =P No la, sometimes I do think about people and the good memories 🙂 .

Reading this entire paragraph made me see why people love me so much. Rupa-rupanya I am so nice! Hehe! I didn’t even realize it okay! I did it for her because we are best friends! I took her cycling to a secluded area and we were happy that we explored a new place. Mana tahu… Balik rumah kena marah for our bravery. Now that I think about it, it was too silly of us hahahaha! What were we thinking about!!! Really tak pakai otak lo. Thank God nothing happened to us!

I am so sorry for being impatient and lazy. I always try to be more patient and less lazy but in the end, still very impatient and lazy =P… I can’t remember what concert we watched? Was it Malaysian Idol? O.O … That’s the only thing I could think up of! I miss the tom yam yee mee at Tong Shen but now sudah tak ada. Uhh… So sad! T____T !!!

Oh yea, Ee Jane and I created a world called Pluto because it is the furthest planet from the Sun [Correct? Lazy to check Wikipedia hahaha!] and we are like the outcast in class. We didn’t really bother anyone else and don’t remember anyone existed until they join our world/madness =P . Good thing that she sedar I did more work and she dictated me around hahaha! Step, it is your turn now!!! =P !!! Enjoy it while it last! =P

Her first P/S is epic. Hahaha! She knew that I would blog about it one fine day and I did so after 7 years xD ! Last last in the surat still must blame me =X But if she doesn’t blame me, then she isn’t Low Ee Jane anymore xD !

And she too, dedicated an entire page of drawing to me! The drawing is on our little adventure la. More details below!! =D

Everyone… This is me dragging her around everywhere whenever she is not feeling well or just plainly lazy hahahahaha! I can’t really think what is she lazy about apart from doing homework and copying notes but I believe sure ada punya just that I can’t remember right now. Please confess!

This is us eating tom yam yee mee at Tong Shen! The clay pot is too recognizable! Hehehe! I am guessing she is the girl on the left because her pinafore is always hanging down one side sebab too longgar =P.

And this is Ee Jane being my dentist because there is a fish bone or something stuck in between my teeth *Paiseh*. Ah… Now semua tahu this hal T____T !

This is us pergi jalan-jalan! xD I am guessing she is the one on the left because the mata got more cat feel and errr, I don’t wear jacket out punya hehehe! Am I right?! xD

I wanted to share this Chinese New Year card with you guys because it is handmade by Ee Jane. I haven’t properly go through my stash of cards so I am sure there are more handmade cards. Hehe! Isn’t it cute?!

The interior of the card! =) Isn’t it lovely? I really love it! Oh ya, her other nickname is Sugar Stick but no one ever calls her that. All in all, I hope that you have enjoyed my cards posts a lot because I DO have a lot of fun writing about them! All this thoughtful cards and letters will always bring back memories of friendship which I have forgotten. So I guess, it is not only pictures that can paint a thousand words but cards and letters too can paint a thousand pictures. I really do appreciate everything that people gave me and whenever I am upset, I would read it back because I can feel their love ❤ 🙂 .

The Letter

There is a tie between The Letter and The Colourful and Artsy Letter in the poll. Right now, I will first write/disclose The Letter because let’s save the best for the last [The best between the two tie letters] ! Hehehe!

The Letter is actually an unsent letter. It was a letter written by me in reply to a then best friend’s letter. The letter was never given to him because I feel that he simply isn’t worth it. Our friendship went through many ups and downs because of his stupidity. Today, I consider this friendship gone because I really had enough. There are reconciliation efforts taken by this best friend but I can never bring myself to reciprocate this effort. Mainly it is because I don’t want to be hurt anymore and I do not want to be reminded of his extreme stupidity.

This letter was written back in February 2009. If the then said best friend is ever reading this post, I really don’t know how he would feel! Imagine getting a reply that you have been waiting for back then 5 years later!

He wrote me a letter and honestly, I was very surprised when I received it! Anyway, his letter wasn’t very pleasing la. He wrote it very nicely but I guess, he didn’t know that the content of the letter is hurtful. Even today when I read it, I was reminded of how obvious he made it that I was just an option and never a priority. I stuck around being friends with him because I value our friendship enough.

In his letter, he mentioned that our friendship is blessed by God and he hopes that I will give us a chance to be together. In all honesty, I have never thought about being with him at all [For now] because the kind of closeness that we share is only at the friendship level. At the point of writing that letter to him, my feelings were mixed up because there are so many things to worry about. STPM is at the end of the year and there are quite a few issues in friendship to be solved at that point.

In his letter, he mentioned his ex-girlfriend and the entire story disappointed me. I am okay with you liking me [In fact, I will be surprised] but I hate it when you take me as a rebound and perhaps, you see it as an easy way out. To me, this is one of the worst friendship betrayal you can ever do unto me. I have always felt that feelings don’t fade away as easily and many times, I can sense how people feel but I just don’t say it out.

Even until today, some best friends told me that if I ever date him, he would love me very much. I do agree but I am also very sure that his extreme stupidity will annoy me 1038373832919 times. Apart from that, I will always be reminded that how he goes after me because I am the best friend who is always there for him. The latter will scare me off enough. Hahaha! Sudah kena blacklist for now.

Even until today, I still love my freedom very much. In fact, if I am ever restricted, I would feel very miserable. For now, relationships are not for me. It confuses me all the time – did I bring the wrong attitude/mindset into a relationship or I happen to meet the wrong/dumb guys. I really don’t know. Mel is right, I am very afraid of falling in love so the moment I realized that the guy is not as good as he seems to be, I would be very glad and thank God for it [Based on a real story].

I realize that I would ignore and try to walk away from any friendship that has potential to turn into relationship. It scares me very, very much although people say it is good to marry your best friend. In my case, I am afraid of crossing the border of friendship and bringing it to love relationship. What if it didn’t work out and we are left with nothing?

The final part of the letter will not be uploaded because I mentioned his name and this is supposed to be anonymous! Hahaha! So whoever who knows this person, don’t say a word 😉 Just keep it to yourself. To be fair, I will type out the final part of the letter below:

…once in a relationship, there is a limit to everything that one does. I just hope that you understand that I am not fit to be in a relationship right now and we should just remain as best friends =). 

Please don’t wait for me, it will not be fruitful… I don’t want to waste your time. Just trust me, I am not the one for you. There are many more things I wish I could tell you, but I think it’s best that it was left unsaid. But anyway, we will stay as best friends! Okay? =) Take care. 

Reading back this entire letter reminded me of the many things I have been wanting to tell him but I didn’t dare to because his opinion might be biased and prejudiced. I can’t remember if I ever tell him about it but right now, it is no longer important. He used to be one of my best friends whom we never get bored of seeing one another but today, it is never the same anymore. Also, I completely did not intend to reply the last part of his letter because it spells desperation.

This entire post reminded me of a genius advice given by Nano to me recently regarding some people in my life right now:

His feelings might be true but his stupidity is unacceptable!

Such a true and wise piece of advice which I never except to hear it from Nano.

The Envelope Sealed with A Smile and Ribbon

Aha! So according to the poll here, you are curious about the content of this envelope. This was a letter written by Nano to me after STPM. She put the letter in my house letterbox and the most epic part? I didn’t even know about it! Haha! I didn’t know that she is good at giving surprises! Hehehe!

When I first got the letter, I was wondering who sent it to me! Then I saw the cute smile and neat ribbon, I knew it has to be a female sender [Hahaha!!! Look at the pinkness of the ribbon and attention to detail – not something I would think a guy would do =P ]. I think she did text me so that I would check my mailbox but somehow I was quite shock when I saw this cute envelope. Ah, I just I just woke up or came back from somewhere so yea, I am overwhelmed [Actually I refuse to admit that I sesat-ed for a moment].

I felt really excited when I was opening the envelope! Hehehe! Well, it is like opening up a birthday/Christmas present and I was even more sure that it was a female sender because of the colourful writing as well as decorative paper! =P Well, I have yet to know/meet guys who actually write using colourful pens on decorative papers! =P And if I do know/stumble upon any, I’ll let you know! Maybe he’s one artistic dude yea! 😉

From the very first word of the letter, I was overwhelmed till the very last word. Yes, this letter is indeed a surprise and I love good surprises! ❤

I think my farewell letter to Nano was a rather sad one that’s why she started off the opposite way in her opening paragraph! =P That year in Upper 6 before or after STPM, I wrote many letters to best friends and friends because I really appreciate their presence in my Form 6 life. Without them, LIFE IS SO DULL AND DOWN. Everyone in Form 6 [Yes, even the kiasu and annoying one] has made my life so much better. Honestly, they taught me to be a better person  and I have always believed that my life in Form 6 has to be one of the turning points in my life for the better. I may not be that number 1 student in school, but from this, I have learnt to always give and try my best. Giving up is never an option for now.

Nano was so happy to see me on the first day of Lower 6 and I wasn’t thrilled at all hahahahahaha! [You can read all about it here] I was such a mean person but well, her niceness changed me so I guess, that’s something good. Honestly without her in KHS, my life would be duller than ever because I have no one to disturb/irritate every single day of my life. Hahahahahahahaha! I bet you miss me irritating you now! =P Come to think about it, Nano is a really active student in Convent and I think she has decided to focus on studies in Form 6 until I dragged her out for activities.

I joined countless activities when I was in Form 6 and I absolutely love them but once I enter university, I have a different purpose. In all honesty, I have learnt a lot life skills and gained lots of valuable experiences from all the extra co-curricular activities in Form 6. So much that when I entered university, when I am put to do the same thing, I got really bored because I didn’t get to learn anything. In the end, I opted to work while studying and this has enriched my exposure to the working world as well as my wallet for now… Hehehe!

I miss chatting Nano over the phone too! Especially when she says:

Wait ah, I go get biscuit/food first.

Sorry ah you gained weight hahahahahahahahahaha! Anyway, I am really glad that throughout my university years, Nano and I did keep in touch so we basically know each other friends [I even ganged up with her friends to bully her =P *Win!*] which is a very good thing! So I guess, it is the effort that you make in order to keep the distance closer to one another 😉 !

The thing about friendship is – most of the time you learn from one another. You extract what is good about the other person and learn/try to emulate this good point of theirs. It’s like trying to make a fusion of your friend’s good side with yours. So yes, good friends make you a better person. What I have learnt from Nano is to keep things simple so that I don’t have to think so much. Things are really great once you keep it simple. Well, if you overdo it, you will end up being ignorant so finding a balance is the key to it.

The thing about being true to myself and everyone else – people either love it or hate it. Sometimes with people, you gotta act and pretend because they like watching movie so you gotta be one helluva Oscar Award Best Actress winner. Well, I guess now I will choose to show my true self to certain people because most of the time, no one appreciates it.

All the time, I am really grateful to have true friends [For now] because sometimes, I feel like such a nasty person like me don’t deserve them! Hahaha! I think they are all such good friends with high level of patience and toleration. Well, I guess I should give credits to myself for being a good friend too. If I am so bad, I don’t think anyone wanna be friends with me anymore lo =P… Anyway, I hope Nano means the REAL Barney and not the cetak rompak Barney in this post. Just in case you are wondering, the cetak rompak Barney looks like this:

Just convince me again that this isn’t Barney ==…

Hehe! I am very honoured that you used this big word on me! Very terharu as well. Well, I guess we love each other [For now!] enough to use the word. And yes my Nano, I kept the letter and it was well kept lagi tu okay! See, I appreciate it so, so much! ❤