The long overdue post of my moments in 2013 and Wang Lee Hom is now married *Patah hati* 😦 T_____T… Just only last year [Click here] I said I am not married to him yet and this year I am gonna say – I am never going to be married to him *Heartbroken* 😦 . But, I shall wish him happiness with all my heart because if you really love someone, you should wish him/her happiness even though they don’t belong to you 🙂 *Besar hati* 😛 .
Dearest Lee Hom, single or taken – you will always be my favourite male singer! ❤
a) When Ee Jane officially returns from India for good! Now we are no longer in different time zone and we can meet each other easily <3.
My Ee Jane and I! ❤
b) Receiving my birthday and Christmas present. It was totally unexpected but I really love it. Thank you so much 🙂 .
c) Completing the script which I have been dying to do so for the longest time ever. It is part of my life and whenever I read it, it reminds me to never be dumb for now.
Maybe I should make a movie out of it =P.
d) The day I ended my undergrad life with no regrets at all.
My final performance of my undergrad! ❤ This is one of the cutest pictures of Mel and I on stage.
e) The day Arlex recommended me this song:
Pray For You by Jaron Lowenstein
This is my to go song for now whenever I feel pissed off.
f) The owner of the restaurant treated me a special drink during my birthday dinner! =D =D !!
My birthday drink and I! ❤
a) The day my ‘best friend’ disrespected me. You never have to choose in the first place but you chose to choose. I respect your decision.
b) Semangat-ly planned for three best friends birthday celebration and in the end, it seems like it was Mel’s and I punya birthday. How very awesome. To this one particular best friend, I invited you way earlier and you have to ditch me for a last minute invitation. Can you please differentiate which is a sincere invitation and which is not? I guess you have lost all your sense of judgement and I am really upset because it feels like I have lost a great friend.
My mum used to tell me that once my best friends have their significant other, it would be tough for them to get along with their single best friends. Their single best friends may not mean anything negative/bad but anything the single best friend do/say may be seen as jealousy. I never quite want to believe my mum because it hasn’t happened to me. When it does, I can only tell my mum:
Mi, you are right.
The Most Afraid
This part is only dedicated to my final exam of my undergrad. It was one of the most horrible and murderous papers I ever had. But for now, I thank God that I went through it unharmed ❤ .
I get annoyed easily but not angry easily. But this one is a winner. When this ‘best friend’ tagged me in a photo which he isn’t supposed to tag me. To me, this is a breach of trust and betrayal to the friendship. If you did not know how severe it is, then please use your brain and think about it.
I called you up and you can dengan senang-senangnya say that you will remove it later. Anymore later I think I sudah mati. I am already angry and he must send me a (No Subject) e-mail. When I read this one line in his e-mail, I wanna raise a troop of army just to raise their middle fingers at him but he isn’t worth it:
If you hid yourself away from me under impulse, I can understand because anger can cause one to act irrationally.
EXCUSE ME? I HID MYSELF AWAY FROM YOU? This is one of the biggest jokes ever! I am deleting you from my life don’t you get it?! I did nothing wrong so I don’t see why I must hide myself away from you [So don’t simply jump into conclusion]. I do agree anger does cause one to act irrationally but look at how rationally you string your sentence together. Sudah baca pun tak nak maafkan you. Ingatkan I yang kecil hati but when I show it to my other best friends, they laughed and asked me why are you so stupid/dumb. Why ah? Because I am dumb/stupid enough to forgive you 11557852112 times back in Form 6, that’s why you remain this stupid/dumb and never learn your lesson.
The Most Thankfully Surprised
When I broke down in the KTM after a shitty day at work and this beautiful lady hugged me. She gave me a candy and said:
Happiness is hard to find. If you do find it, keep it.
The Most Tulan [Annoyed]
a) This definitely goes to the day I was questioned by my friend’s girlfriend if I chose her room on purpose. You guys can tell me that she might be just curious but wait till you hear her condescending tone like I did it on purpose. Excuse me, you chose to move to a single room and I was thrown into your room by the office admin and you think that I did it on purpose? What do mean when you asked me for the reason I chose your room? Her exact question was like this (The meaning is there, you get it. Fonts in red indicate extra information given by me):
I want to know ah, why did you choose my room? I remember you are staying at the opposite block on the second floor right? So why did you choose my room (on the fourth floor)?
What do you expect me to answer? Like this? :
I chose your room because I want to replace you in your room.
Fourth floor is fun. I can exercise and tone my legs.
Is this what you expect? As a person, I honestly thought you would be more tactful and classy but I guess I was wrong about you. Belajar kursus pergigian tetapi mentality tak up to par. And I think you are really insane to think that I would pick to stay on the fourth floor. My best friends almost died laughing when I told them what you asked me.
I was being nice when I invited you back to the room to collect the stuff that you missed out when you are packing and this is what you have to say to me/slap into my face? How very polite. I have mentioned about it in the first part of my blog post here.
b) When this friend organized a movie day and conveniently FFK the entire gang. The worst part? She doesn’t thinks that she is wrong at all. At least feel apologetic about it. Don’t try to play the victim later ’cause you are not.
c) When people don’t keep me updated when they promised to do so. Keep your words and walk your talk.
d) When people accuse/scold me at work for something that I didn’t even know about. Seriously?? Just because someone gave you a bad time, it doesn’t means that you have to put me on the same boat. But never mind, I shall forgive you because I have a big heart.
e) When this particular person treated me like I am his girlfriend when we are just friends. You wanna treat me like your girlfriend, that’s your problem, not mine but please, don’t try to control/restrict me like I am yours. For now, I was never yours to begin with. Stay as friends and we’ll be good for now.
f) When this friend asked me out for lunch/dinner, it would always be in the time of his convenience. When I can never make it, I am expected to skip class. Who do you think you are? Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.
The Most Regretted
Hmm… So far I can’t think of any yet =P…
The Most Stressed
This goes to all my exam weeks and my internship [You can read more about my internship by clicking here].
The Most Self-Satisfied
a) Completing my undergrad and handing in my Academic Project! Biggest satisfaction and achievement ever!
b) Walking out of the examination hall like a boss because that marks my final paper of my undergrad life for now! Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!
c) My phone rang and when I saw your name on the caller ID, I let it ring till it dies off.
d) Getting a free drink at Ochado for being a good citizen! =P
The Most Embarrassing
This definitely goes to the day I was walking to the examination hall and I realize that I forgot my ____ [I can’t bring myself to type it out T_______T ].
The Most Shocked
a) As per above [The Most Embarrassing moment], I am shocked with my own memory. Mana boleh macam ini lo!! *Determined to not repeat the same mistake for now*
b) When this ‘best friend’ grabbed my wrist along the hostel corridor, pulled me to a corner just to talk when there is nothing left to say anymore. For a second I thought I would be killed/kidnapped.
c) Realizing that I have been lied to by this friend for 10 years. Geez. Entah I bodoh ke naive ke ignorant. You can read all about it here.
The Most Confused
a) When certain people ditch Mel and I for ‘better’ benefits and still expect to be friends. Wow? Seriously? This is what I would say as first class betrayal. I don’t understand why after people stabbed you front and back, they still ada muka to smile at you. The worst shit, out of courtesy you gotta smile back. So confusing, don’t know what you want la.
b) There’s this guy who send messages to Ee Jane and I and he has a habit of replying people a dozen of hours later. Everything he says/do is flirtatious but he can’t see/understand why. When I first met back this friend, I was told about the girls who have been madly in love with him. Initially I thought those girls are crazy. Really. But as time goes, I realized and understood why. Those girls were never crazy, just naive.
As much as I have smiled from all his lovely gestures and charm, at the back of my mind, I knew that he would do the same for anyone else within his radar. I really don’t know what is he trying to achieve. I remember we used to be pretty close back then but now, he is just like a stranger and a reflection in the water. He would only allow me to see him the way he would want me to see him. For a moment it disappoints me that our friendship turned this way but at the same time, I am really confused with this person that I avoided this particular place in town because I really didn’t want to see/hear anymore lies. You can read more about it here.
The Most Excited
a) The day Ee Jane called me for breakfast when she arrived at Kajang after a long flight from India!!! ❤
b) Voting for the very first time! Well… This is not really my first time as I have been exposed to the entire voting system in National Service so let’s say… this is my first time voting officially! I feel like a true Malaysian now =P.
Wheeew! Finally it’s done. I have been thinking through many moments if I should go into the details or should I just generalize them. At last, I have decided to go into the details because from the details, that’s where I learnt all my lessons from. The year 2013 has been too much of a disappointment. It feels like a slight uphill battle of emotions and most of the time, it feels like God is testing me if I have already learnt/still remember the lessons from the past.
For now, I am glad to say that I have already learnt my lesson and I still remember it this very millisecond.
‘Cause love only comes once in a while
And knocks on your door
And throws you a smile
And takes every breath
Leaves every scar
Speaks through your soul
And sings to your heart
But if I knew then what I know now
~If I Knew Then by Lady Antebellum~