The title of my post today was inspired by a phrase that I heard in a movie or entertainment news [One of the rare times when my eyes were actually planted on the television] but I think the movie/news is on You Are The Apple of My Eye 🙂 [Click here to read on my post about it!]. I remember when I first heard this phrase; 谢谢你喜欢我, I feel that it is such a lovely phrase but I cannot understand why the girl would say such a thing. Why is she thanking the guy for liking her but in the end, she wasn’t with him? I don’t understand at all and I actually thought about it on and off trying to seek/understand the meaning of the phrase until last 2 nights, I finally got the answer unexpectedly while having an unexpected talk with a friend whose name I shall not mention :).
What he said made me tear because it was really sincere and it was probably one of the most sincere sentences that I have ever heard after such a long time. We both share many good moments, horrible moments, confusing moments, misunderstandings, laughter, tears and smiles throughout our friendship. We have walked towards and away from each other countless time but I guess – we made it through the storm :).
We both have changed throughout this 4 years. From two immature teenagers who enjoys spending a lot of time together back then to the now two not-that-immature-anymore young adults who don’t spend a lot of time together, I laugh when we talk about the silly nicknames and stuff that we used to do together back then. Those are part of the best memories I ever had in life with this friend – minus all the misunderstanding :).
In this post, I want to thank him for still keeping me in a corner of his heart even after such a long time. Thank you for always wishing me happiness and the best for me without me knowing it all this while. I have always wondered how does it feels like to have/know that someone still cares for you unknowingly and that someone has always wished you happiness and all the best. Last two nights, I finally understood how it feels like – it feels great and I am really touched by those sincere sentences. I cried a little because now I don’t know if I deserve it from this friend. It is such a sweet thought to know that you are still remembered and indirectly – loved :). The thought of what he said made me feel warm and fuzzy – right straight into my heart :).
To this person, thank you so much because I have finally understood the meaning of this phrase. It is a phrase that you only use when you finally learn how to appreciate the other party’s love but knowing that you can never return it for now. I am honoured to still have a place in your heart, the space may be small but it is the thought that counts :).
Talking to this person made me realized and remembered who I was 4 years ago – the girl whom he fell in love with till today I supposed :). To me, it is amazing how this feelings can still remain even after 4 years after so many storms and rain we have been through. This friend told me that relationship like ours, if developed, it will last forever. I trust you but 4 years ago, I made a mistake and 4 years later, the fault is still mine regardless of what you say because I still feel that way. Today, 4 years later, I will not and will never repeat the same mistake ever again for now. I have learnt one of the life’s greatest lesson from you and the ‘us’ back then. Mistakes are to be learned from and not repeated.
All I can do now is to wish you happiness that you deserve from the girl whose hands you are holding right now. The kind of love that she showers upon you, is what I can never give to you. Though for now, this is the type love that will not be returned equally, I still thank you for liking me ;).
P/S: Thank you for everything last two nights because now, I understand more about the real meaning of true love and this phrase that I really, really like :)… 谢谢你喜欢我 :).