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My Sister

When you have something, you’ll never appreciate it till you lose it. Yea, this statement is very true. When we have something, we’ll never appreciate it and when we don’t have it, we’ll envy others.

In life, most of my friends have siblings and sometimes, we complain about our siblings and when we argue with them, we will wish that they would disappear and not appear in front of us anymore though deep down, we don’t mean it at all.

Ferlynne is my younger sister and she is also the most serious one among the three of us. Just like Cassandra, when she was young I never once took notice of her and in fact I think I’ve ignored her my whole life because it’s like this:

I wake up, I see you.

I go to school, I see you.

I come home to have lunch, I see you.

I take a nap, you are beside me.

When I wake up, you are either beside me or standing by the door screaming at me to wake up and have my dinner.

When I am bathing, I hear your voice talking outside or you are sitting on the bed, reading some magazines or listening to music.

When I want to sleep, you are on the same bed as me.

When I wake up, I see you AGAIN!

It was till I went for National Service and gosh, that was when I began to miss all of them including her. I miss the way she would wake me up in the morning for school and get pissed off with me when I am slow and late and I miss the way she will glare at me when I piss her off by playing the same music the whole day on my computer and especially songs that are very, very slow and sad hahahahahahaha! πŸ˜€

So after National Service, it was when I learn how to appreciate her presence in my life.

Cake from Secret Recipe- Pecan Butterscotch.

We have been in the same school ever since kindergarten and now, she is too in Kajang High School. When she first arrived, I introduced her to almost all my friends and you know what, menyesal saya introduce dia! Because, like this:

Case 1

Me: Eh this is my sister!! *Big grins*

Ferlynne: *Probably feeling awkward*

LeiKen: Ooo, don’t looks like you hehe!

Me: Pretty right?! πŸ˜€

LeiKen: Yea, prettier than you *Grins*

Me: -______- I hate you LeiKen! T.T

LeiKen: *Grins*


Case 2

Ferlynne and I were in the class because we skipped assembly la πŸ˜€ Then Tiam Foo, Wei Siang, Soon Seng and Soon Peng were in class as well but they paid no attention to us because they are busy talking.

After Ferlynne left…

Wei Siang: Eh just now that girl ah, who is that? Your friend or cousin?

Me: My sister la!

Soon Seng, Soon Peng: OH! WHY NEVER INTRODUCE TO US!

Me: Introduce before already la!

Tiam Foo: Ya la, told you all before already that her sister is prettier than her.

Me: OI I’M STILL HERE!!!

Soon Peng: You… You should introduce to me! *Straightens his tie* I’m still single *Beams*

Me: -____________-… Fine. Fine. =|

Whenever I introduce her as my sister, people will stare at us and they doubt if we are ever siblings because we don’t look alike at all and even our personality are the opposite though our horoscopes are compatible hahaha! =P

After I pick my clothes for shopping or whatever, I’ll seek her for advice and in return, she’ll hunt for accessories from the little cabinet where I keep all my accessories when she needed one. So we help each other la that’s the conclusion πŸ˜€ Haha!

Whenever I go shopping with her, it’s like this:

Me: Ooooooo, look at that pretty dresssss! *Shining eyes*

Ferlynne: See the price first.

Me: *Flips price tag* Oh so expensive; RM200++.

Ferlynne: Don’t buy and don’t try. Go see other things better.

Me: -_-… =(

Ferlynne: What? Not like you try already you can buy right?!

Haih, if I go alone ah, I’ll try for fun =P Haha!

Both of us have difference liking for clothes though we share all our clothes. She dresses appropriately for every event and always ensures that she doesn’t overdress in any way. And I am the opposite, I try my best to dress up appropriately but if I happen to overdress, I will just go, oh why everyone wear until so simple and completely ignore everything and continue to have fun :D…

She is the most humble one among the three of us and she will never go out looking untidy and she is always very presentable; something which I have to learn =D… Haha! She enjoys watching movie and listening to music and hates it when I zoom to the maximum on her ugly photos just to laugh at her πŸ˜€

Photo hot and fresh from the oven today: The Cake Murderer.

Once in National Service, a question was asked in class which made everyone thought about it for the whole time in class. The question is, have we ever let our family know that we love them? Some people are egoistical in nature and will never let people that they care about them or love them with all they have.

And sadly, I happen to be one of them. I never like or wanted people to know that I care or love them. Initially I couldn’t figure out why but later on, someone in camp told me that it was ego and now, I accept that answer.

I’ve tried my best to change and to not be egoistical and I’ve learn how to show people that I do care and love them with all I have. And actually, letting the other party know that you do care and love actually do strengthen relationships :)…

So dearest Ferlynne…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

&

I LOVE YOU! :D

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Upper 6/2009 Graduation

Jeng jeng jeng!! Today’s is our graduation day from KHS [Though we still have to go to school on Monday] and yes, yes, correct, I am blogging about it and putting up photos! πŸ˜€ So here we go!!

The whole event was held at Equatorial Hotel at Bangi πŸ™‚ It was a very lovely and beautiful place πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ You know what, this is the FIRST event ever that I went two hours earlier because I am in charge of the slide presentation [Or so they call it] together with Nano! πŸ˜€

Not very exciting la actually ’cause you are stuck with your work and don’t fully enjoy the whole thing until your work is done and then now I know, when you organize an event, you don’t actually enjoy it unless everyone else enjoys the whole event πŸ™‚

It is indeed a word of thank you and it’s a great event or it was fun from the everyone else that will make your day and felt like it’s all WORTH it πŸ™‚

Yea, now only I know though I’m not the one organizing it.

~*~

So… Photos time! πŸ˜€

L-R: Puan Maizura, Sam, Nano, hotel worker/manager/whatever =|…

Please ignore my face expression. This photo was taken by Sin Yee and I happen to look up, baru nak smile then she snap already T.T… Should’ve just look at the laptop and pretend to be rajin =P

So, while Nano and I are looking at the technician to set up the LCD and bla bla bla, Sin Yee took my camera and took a lot of random photos for me because it was needed for documentation :D…

And Sin Yee, thank you very, very much! πŸ™‚ -Hugs!- πŸ˜€

Sin Yee, Chee Yang

This photo is made from precious stones one ah I tell you. You know why, because Chee Yang is always running from the camera.

So, basically, before 9.25am [The event was supposed to start at 9.00am, but what to do, Malaysian time what], everyone was busy snapping photos except Nano and I who are staring at the laptop, looking at each other/everyone else and waiting for the technician.

Yea, everyone was busy snapping photos until the VIP and pengetua arrives. And I think this is the first event in KHS without the kompang-kompang-s :D.

So as usual, sang Negaraku, listen to bacaan doa and then listen to speeches. Sorry, this is actually what we are doing when the speeches are going on:

You talk on the phone with your friend whose table is either diagonally behind yours or right at the end of the hall or anywhere in the hall but too far for you to walk over and talk during the speeches.

SMS. Kean Jie, this photo is FOR YOU! πŸ˜€

Preview the photos that you have taken earlier on with your friends, zoom in to see how you looks like and then proceed to snap a photo of your glass or whatever that you find interesting.

Soon Peng, Leong.

Or you can pretend to listen like Soon Peng [He seriously have this face that looks like he’s listening when he’s actually dreaming away] or start SMS-ing someone else who is NOT in the hall like Leong [Hahaha! πŸ˜€ :D]

Up next, the slide presentation πŸ™‚ Thank God it went on smoothly and I’m so happy to see some of my friends’ smiling faces and thank you everyone, for the very lovely comments on the video :)…

Do thank Nano for it as well, because without her, it would’ve never be this beautiful and perfect πŸ™‚

And I tell you what, my favourite photo in the whole slide/video is this:

Because… I’m the photographer of this photoΒ !

The choir group. Photo by Kok Peng.

So we did have the penyampaian sijil ceremony along with the graduation book, photos are not allowed during the ceremony so sorry la.

And Helen, this is the front page of our graduation book :D:

Ketua Editor = Tan Kean Jie πŸ˜€

And ooo, I forgot this:

Nano received an award; Pelajar Harapan πŸ˜€ Work harder Nano! You are one of the Pelajar Harapan you know! πŸ˜€ That means right, those who don’t receive this award are known as Pelajar Tak Ada Harapan.

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And then sing the school song and it’s lunch time! πŸ˜€

I tell you what, I feel like slaughtering Kok Yaw/Lao Gong today. Because he took desserts for Sin Yee [Oi, don’t rampas my husband >=( ] and when I ask where is mine, you know what, HE ANSWERED ME BACK LIKE THIS:

What? Take yourself la hahaha!Β 

T.T… *Heartbreaks* … What kind of husband is this?! Porkie, you are still the best!! ❀ That’s why, with clothes the new are the best, with husbandS, the old are the best HAHAHA!

He did took for me later, after taking for everyone else that is.

But nevertheless, I still love him, in fact, I love him more than ever because…

Michael: Kok Yaw, your wife looks beautiful today.

Kok Yaw: Of course, my wife ma!

What the fall I tell you. Because in school…

Michael: Kok Yaw, look your wife nak curang with me.

Kok Yaw: *Looks up from his handphone game/magazine* Orh. SO?!

-_____________________________-… And my heart breaks.

My lunch! πŸ˜€

When everyone was rushing out to get the food [Buffet style], I was sitting down, waiting for the crowd to clear off. Then I saw Ee Hahn walking in with a plate full with food. So I decided to test his sincerity.

Me: Oi Ee Hahn! How can you eat first! LADIES FIRST YOU KNOOOOW!

Ee Hahn: What? Go take yourself la. *Turn aside with his plate*

Me: Eh, you should give me first! I’m Miss Adorable that’s why!!

Sin Yee: Ya la, what la you! LADIES FIRST! So not gentleman la you!

Ee Hahn: I don’t care. Go take yourself la. *Sits down and makan*

-___________-…

Sage, Sam, Farid

And so… I saw Sage walking in with a plate with more food and I decided to test his sincerity as well πŸ˜€

Me: Oh for me?! Yes, I know! Thank you, thank you!! *Takes the plate off Sage’s hand*

Sage:

Me: What? Cannot is it?! *Puppy eyes*

Sage: Can, can. I’ll go get a new one myself :).

Me: Aww, that’s so sweet of you! Nah, I’m just kidding la *Hands him back the plate*

Sage: Eh why?! Take it la, it’s okay, I can take again.

Me: No la, I don’t like the lamb. NEH, THIS EE HAHN HOR, I WANT TO SEE HE’S SINCERE OR NOT, SEE SEE AH, LANGSUNG TAK SINCERE.

Ee Hahn: *Looks up and ignores, continue eating*

Sage: Oh thank God I took the lamb . Oi Low, what la you, LADIES FIRST la, you call yourself a gentleman?

Me:

Lelaki yang baik di dunia ini memang sudah pupus.

And photography session:

Yohen/Hantu Besar and I πŸ˜€ My eyes are half closed but it’s okay, he looks nice πŸ˜€ Not so selekeh looking like in school la.

Kean Jie and I without his signature smile.

L-R: Sin Yee, Nano, Sharon, Sam, LeiKen.

LovebirdS.

Chui San [One of the girls whom I consider to be my best friend in KHS πŸ™‚ ] and Jia Yan [The first girl friend of mine in 6BF]

LeiKen and Puan Kan [His mum!]. They have the same smile eh! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

Kean Jie, Ee Hahn [Hmmph!], Sage

Kean Jie looks so kemas and smart for once, because in school he looks very selekeh also, like this:

Muka nak seduce older girls.

The 3 of us with Yan Yee! πŸ˜€

Neo and I [God knows why I looks weird here]! Neo is my kindergarten friend. So in the whole school, she is my OLDEST friend ever!

I still remember in kindergarten she used to wear red shoes, red straps [for the uniform, it’s actually brown] and carries a red bag and I use a red pencil case =P I also remember that once, where we threw our pencil case at the boys in front of us because they are so irritating!

Kamal and I! He came back all the way from Terengganu [Correct?!] just for this graduation lunch! πŸ™‚

The Prince Charming and The Queen! Haha! πŸ˜€

The real head prefect and I! πŸ™‚

The 3 of us with Miss Tan, our Maths Paper 2 teacher! πŸ˜€ And everyone, I am NOT bongkok, I belum ready then they snap already 😦

Viven and I! πŸ˜€ Wa, my lips looks so shiny πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

Chen Tiam Foo and I. He finally takes a photo with me. Because usually in school…

He runs away from my camera hahaha! πŸ˜€

Sharon giving her thank you speech after receiving an award for being the perfect student! She DEFINITELY very well much deserve it! πŸ™‚ and quote Miss Leela’s comment:

A truly remarkable person.

Aiya, when is my turn?!

Wong Weng Keong and Sim Sin Yee: The Perfect Couple [But actually belum date lagi…]

Don’t you just think that they looks so perfect being together?! If they ever get married and have children, trust me, their children will definitely be TALL, THIN [Can eat a lot and don’t get fat], not very fair [Sorry, both of them are not very fair] and SLENDER!

They share so many similarities, how can not be perfect RIGHT?! πŸ˜€

Okay that’s it, both of them are gonna crush my bones into powder.

That’s me at the back giving a flower to Kamal and Sin Yee at the front giving a flower to Michael πŸ˜€

Michael, YOU SANG VERY, VERY WELL TODAY! Consider joining a singing competition and I’ll vote for you and buy your CD-s and not download them !

The 3 of us with Puan Lee Li Cheng who taught us Maths Paper 1! πŸ˜€

Top L-R: Viven, Sin Yee, Sam, Nano.

Bottom L-R: Miss Tan, Puan Fam, Puan Chew.

Beautiful girls! πŸ˜€

Soon Seng and his girlfriend, Ying Fei who looks very stunning today! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

Ow and I. He is a very quiet boy, but I know he likes to talk actually and he CAN TALK A LOT =P

Tat Joon and I! πŸ˜€

Sunthary has a crown on her head.

Sunthary who looks very PINK today and I! πŸ˜€

The positive gradient =P

Nano, Miss Heng, Sin Yee, Sam, Encik Rizal.

Praki Boy and I :D.

And then the event ended and most of the students and teachers went home. Sage, Kok Peng and I went to the swimming pool and took some photos πŸ˜€

Tengok that Kean Jie, looks so gangster after the event -.-

You know what ah, these are the fishes at the Equatorial Hotel pond. You just need to stand there, ALL the fishes will RUSH to you and open and close their mouth as if you are gonna feed them =|…

So my hypothesis is that they’ve not eaten for days. Poor fishies =(…

Kok Peng and I! πŸ˜€

Sage and I!! πŸ˜€

More beautiful girls πŸ™‚ And that’s ALL the BEAUTIFUL GIRLS, waiting for the car =P =P

Thank you Sharon πŸ˜€ -HUGS!-

Keychain πŸ™‚

Thank you πŸ™‚ You know who you are πŸ™‚ -HUGS!- πŸ˜€

So that is all! πŸ˜€

And if you know which is my favourite photo, you are… like… a worm in my stomach =P [From the Chinese proverb]. I know what are you thinking, NO, not that one :).

~*~

I am typing this part as I am listening to Goodbye by Air Supply and it reminded me of my National Service last day which happens to be a little drama like. Listening back to the song has always brought back memories where I didn’t get to say goodbye.

There’s nothing left to say but goodbye.

There’s no other way than to say goodbye.

-Goodbye, Air Supply-

Is that all you and I can say and do?

Today, I watched the slideshow/video on the big screen in the hall along with everyone else and I want to thank every single one of you who clapped when my public speaking photo was on screen πŸ™‚ It actually means a lot to me so thank you very, very much! πŸ™‚ I appreciate it a lot -Hugs!!- And it was really, really very unexpected as well! πŸ˜€ πŸ™‚

~*~

Sometimes, certain things just play back in your mind like pictures moving around. When I think back, honestly, I wanted things to be back as how it was because it looks beautiful back then. But, why it is like this now?

Because…

I don’t want to hold you back from where you might belong.

-Goodbye, Air Supply-

We don’t belong together. If this is what you want, then we’ll have it this way though I know I’ll be hurt. If it isn’t, then do something about it, the white set in the chess has already made the first move, to go on, the black set has to make a move.

Go ahead and do it.

The Reminiscence Of My Past: Life Back In Convent

After being a KHS student for about a year plus, I have forgotten how it is like to be a Convent girl again. Convent don’t seems to exist in my thoughts and mind anymore. Convent just seems like another place away, in another realm.

The other day, I accompanied Wei Qi to Convent primary school to do some registration stuffs for her youngest sister and when I walked into Convent [The primary and secondary school is just next to each other], I remembered what Wei Qi once told me:

You don’t forget, Convent is where you met ALL your best friends that you have today!

We walked into the back gate [Which they made it much bigger RIGHT AFTER I left school! *Fumes*] and there, all the memories of my life back in Convent came flooding through… And so, I looked back at all my old photos in Convent and gosh, I miss the good old times and friends in Convent.

Yes Nano, now I miss Convent.

~*~

Back in Convent, we are always bounded by the school rules as long as we are in the school compound and don’t ever dream about coming late to school for more than 3 times or not wearing your name tag or school badge for more than a week after school reopens.

Because from the moment you walk into the school compound, at the school gate, the prefects will be there to greet you with their hawk eyes to see if you properly attired [Ribbons etc] to enter the school, or else, get your names written in their book [For real, not like the one that Black Jack in KHS owns] if you break any school rules and bla bla bla you know the whole boring and annoying process.

And today… I’ll tell you about my life back in Convent πŸ™‚ Not all, but a very small part of it.

I’m not gonna tell you about my primary school life, I still remember vividly certain events and what made me cried and what made me laugh though I may be very young to remember anything. But you know, some things, they just stay in your memory and it requires a ERASE ALL HISTORY button [Like the one in Mozilla Firefox] for me to forget about it.

So for people who knows about it, good for you, if not, then it’s okay, we’ll save it for some other day when I miss my primary school life [Which is rather unlikely =P].

If every friends were to represent a part in my life’s Venn diagram in Convent secondary school, Ee Jane plays the biggest part. Because I was stuck with her [For good hahaha! =P] ever since Form 1. Life would have very dull back then without her existence.

You know what, back in Lower 6, I really, really, really miss her a lot that even when I walk to the canteen on the first day of school, I felt like… crying because I missed her so, so, so much and okay, I forgot, this is actually for another post, so skip πŸ˜€ !

One of my favourite subject back then is PJK, because we get to go to the field. Yes, I know I don’t play anything but then I get to sit down and chit chat, exchange news and gossip [Hahaha! Kutuk-ing KHS boys and the boys who irritated Zaharah and I in the KHS bus and read all about it here].

And I remember if they are playing basketball or any balls, I’ll stay far, far, far away because I don’t want to break my spectacles [Did you know that each time I play basketball or volleyball, the ball LIKES to hit me straight on my face?! >=( ] and I don’t want to lose my memory and balance [And the ball likes to hit me directly at the back of my head/spine whenever I sit near the court]

I tell you what, bola-s and I are match made enemies ever since I’m born πŸ˜€ Yes, that must be the reason why!! No, I’m not lousy in sports πŸ˜€ I run… marathon run!! πŸ˜€

And if you intend to record them playing or anything, don’t need la, because they will all gather and pose for your camera and then continue playing semangat-ly πŸ˜€

Zaharah and Sin Yee.

I love PJK exam! Haha, because no one [Except Zaharah] reads the book and it’s always the last paper! πŸ˜€ And the everytime PJK exam routine is like this:

Me: *Chit chatting with Ee Jane, Ching Yin and whoever wants to join*

Zaharah: *Reading, memorizing whatever she can cram in*

After a few glorious minutes…

Zaharah: Eh Sam, no need to read ah?? *Holding a book and pencil*

Me: No. What for?? What is there to read, are you mad hahaha! =P *Continue chit chatting, completely ignoring the stressed up woman*

Zaharah: Eh benci la so many things to read. Are you stress??!

Me: No and relax la, it’s all objective!!

Zaharah: NOOOOOO! Who says so?! Got structure also!!

Me: *Shocks* WHAT????!! Eh Zaharah say got structure, die, we didn’t even read anything! *Panics* Who got bring book?! Alamak why now only you say!! *Super panic*

Ching Yin: Eh, answers provided one la teacher say, neh, you know, fill in the blanks *Grins*

Me: Oh is it? Then don’t care la. You ah don’t simply scare people okay! *Ignores Zaharah and continue with our conversation :D…*

Zaharah: I HATE YOU! YOU AND YOUR STUPID RELAXING ATTITUDE!! *Walks away and continue to stress up herself* HAIYA! No one is reading! I don’t want to read already la!

Ah yes, this is the after recess class cleanliness comments by the prefects. Yea, nothing must be on your table, not even your water bottle and you must even empty the dustbin before you leave the class, switch off the fans and lights and bla bla bla, just make sure that the whole class is clean, neat and looks empty [Hahaha!].

And this reminds me, every time the duty roster is out, Ee Jane and I are always on duty on the same day! Seems like they realized that if they put us on different days we will probably just walk out of the class and not do anything properly about it because we are so degil like that la =P

This is Ee Jane, Puan Tan and I! πŸ˜€ Puan Tan taught us Mathematics back in Form 3 and you know what, she enjoys calling Ee Jane in class to do the questions on the board πŸ˜€ I don’t know why, she must love her more than me =P Haha!

And when Ee Jane goes to the front, Puan Tan will keep an eye on me to make sure that I don’t give her any hint or answer [Because you cannot bring your calculator in front and sometimes you will feel so malas to count 641 x 3, yes count :D]

This is one of Zaharah mak datin’s plastic bag which she claims as one of her most high class plastic bag. I tell you what, there’s one era of her school life, where she brought huge white plastic bag to school and that’s where she keep all her school books and stationaries and we used to make fun of her out of it and she says only high class people bring plastic bag around the school.

She have this black school bag but she keep all sort of conteng-ed paper and unused plastic in it and she never takes anything out of that bag in school so God knows why she brought that bag la. Yes, this must be her idiosyncrasy just like how Praki Boy’s school bag must always sit on the poster paper in class and don’t even go near it or terkena it with your shoe because his bag must be clean =D

I hate the canteen sinks! Because it’s always so dirty, oily and blocked with water with chilli and all sort of stuffs -_- Sometimes, I rather walk to the toilet to wash my hand.

And I tell you what, the sinks in the canteen are annoying because if one sink at the other end is open, then the pressure on the next sink is very low and see see right, it drips out water drop by drop and then someone closes the sink and then suddenly all the water WILL spurt out and wet your pinafore and that’s why it’s so annoying.

All the kiasu-s of Zamrud class.

I think this one needs no elaboration.

This is yellow house Sport’s Day banner! πŸ™‚ Much nicer than KHS one la I tell you. To read more about KHS Sport’s Day, click here.

Aerobic dance or something like that :D… I tell you what, in Convent, Sport’s Day is like a very, very big event and okay, actually any event in school is a big event and the students will rush to sign up for performances la, help teachers la and do anything la for the event.

In KHS, no one gives a shit and if teacher ask for participation, ini macam:

…….

No answer from the students :D…

Behind the teachers:

Student A: Sure ah the whole day got this event only??

Student B: Ya ya, whole day the event only.

Student A: Walao sure very boring one I’m not coming to school tomorrow!

Student B: Me too! My whole class all pakat to ponteng already.

Kesian KHS ada students like Student A and B [Actually sometimes I’m also one of them]

~*~

Okay you know what, this part, off topic, takde kena-mengena with the title anymore because I lost the inspiration =O

Thoughts That Crossed My Mind Right Now:

Top L-R: Jamie, Ai Leng, Ee Jane, Sam

Bottom L-R: Wey Lu, Camilla

Recently, I thought back about all my friends back in Convent again. I wonder what are they doing right now, how are they doing, are they fine, do they have a boyfriend now or if they are enjoying life right now or if they do remember me?

A scene that we don’t see in KHS.

In Convent, I’ve made friends and lost friends. Though people say, when you lose something, you’ll gain something else in return. But I tell you what, I don’t like losing friends though yes, there are a few people in Convent whom I don’t mind losing at all.

I miss her doing that face expression.

You know, sometimes in school, when I sit down alone quietly, I wish my best friends in Convent are with me. I wonder if life in KHS would be any better with them around.

I wonder how different things would be with them around. I wonder if they still miss me sometimes like how sometimes in school I miss them a lot because I just remember how we distance away and how even when we see each other online, we just keep quiet and ignore because we don’t know what to say.

Isn’t that sad?

When I listen to the song A Place For Us by Leigh Nash and Tyler James, it reminded me of two friends and things became ugly and turned upside down. I don’t know whose fault it was, but I know the theme to it all was either a betrayal, misunderstanding, jealousy or anger.

Beautiful things can get pretty scary at times. Sometimes, when things looks beautiful, it is actually the ugliest thing ever. Just like how the one who gives you the best first impression is the one who leaves the worst impression ever.

When I look back at my old Convent photos, I felt like I wanted to be back to Convent again, so that I’ll be together with them and spend more time together. But then it struck me that there is one new best friend in KHS whom I am not willing to let go.

Because if I am really given a chance to go back to the year 2006-2007, then I have to lose this best friend because back then, we are invisible to each other and sometimes, I still gawk in midair on how we turned into best friends.

Will it come a day where our hair are all white and we realized that we are just too far away? I don’t know but I hope this wouldn’t happen at all. As naive as it sounded, but I just think that friends are one of the best thing that one could ever have in life.

I took things for granted back in Convent. Back then, Ching Yin, Ee Jane and I said that we’ll go to Form 6 so I always think that I’ll always have them. Everyone knows that Zaharah and Ai Leng will never go to Form 6. So it’s a fact that in the end, we’ll never end up being together.

But what shocks me the most is, after SPM result was released, Ching Yin and Ee Jane decided to go college and I was stranded alone in National Service [Thank God for Yan Yee] and Form 6. It was then, when I felt like as if I’ve lost them and worst of all, I’m not prepared to lose them when I go to Form 6 and this really, really upsets me a lot even by typing this makes me feel like crying T.T

I didn’t blame anyone for anything that happened, I blame myself for taking things for granted; thinking that it will always be there.

Some people say I hold on too tightly to things that I treasure. Yea, I agree too but that’s me and that’s who I am and that’s what makes me different.

Even now in KHS, there is just one friend that I am not willing to let go. You know how you are willing to lose every single friend except that particular friend? Yea, something like that.

I still remember on the last day of SPM, I went home happily. As in really, really, really happily because SPM is over and I can do whatever I want. But then, let me tell you something, on the last day of SPM, I hugged a lot of people and deep down, there was this rueful feeling of not being able to know them better anymore.

Woof and Meow.

People say, becareful of what you wish for. Yea it’s true. I remember on the last day of SPM [Don’t ask me why do I remember so many things clearly, because I JUST remember because some things are just glue in your memory for life], when I saw Wei Sy and Wei Qi, I was like yea… I’m not gonna see them sleeping anymore.

Then when I walked away, I remember thinking- if only I am given a chance to know more about them.

Haha! And you know what happen next.

Sometimes, when a vase breaks, though we glue it back, we know where is the fissure. The strangest thing is, sometimes I don’t even understand the word friendship. Some people promise you to be friends forever, but then their actions contradicts and this makes me upset big time.

Sometimes I don’t even understand myself, I wonder if I didn’t treat people well enough or am I being too defensive towards myself and friends? Am I being ignorant and temperamental that it scares people away?

She covers her nose because she say she don’t want us to feel small beside her hidung mancung. Prasan punya perempuan!

Some say I am the strangest and most unpredictable person ever. What does it take to be a best friend? What does it take to be considered as the greatest friend ever?

Form 5 graduation robes rented from KHS.

If you know that you are left with just a day on earth, what will you do?

My answer is that I’ll let everyone whom I hold closely in my heart to know how much I love and treasure them though I may not show it out and I’ll tell them how special they are to me in my life and they’ve made my life muchΒ  more colourful.

What about you?

Happy Times In KHS III

So hello again to share about some of my happy moments in KHS! πŸ˜€

Yea, we are crazy according to Sim Ooi Jie πŸ˜€ Same watch and same rubber band πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

2nd October 2009

Nah, for everyone who haven’t seen the new renovated school hall, here it is, nothing much la, looks newer only. They repainted the walls and put tiles OUTSIDE the hall only. Yes correct, that means the floor INSIDE the hall still the cement one.

So we actually have this Maljis Anugerah Ko-kurikulum Dan Anugerah Pelajar Impian Hati this year. Yes, the same one as I attended last year and met Tan Wai Kian along with Sage =P

This is Nano who sleeps everywhere and this is her, sleeping during all the long, long speeches =| But this year the speech by the VIP was not that long la, counted as QUITE GOOD and boleh tahan already compared to last year one and the one at the Karnival Kerjaya [This one can seriously make you pull your hair one -.-]

Yea, actually right, all the maljis can end much, much earlier without all the speeches [which no one listen] and performances.

The performance. The singing was not too bad honestly πŸ˜€ compared to mine that is… =S Haha!

And this is me before receiving the prize with my pink IKO biscuit packet!! πŸ˜€ It’s cute isn’t it?! πŸ˜€ Yes correct, Nano sleeps the whole time and I eat the whole time [No wonder I didn’t slim down T.T].

And oh, to my right, that’s Sage, chattering non-stop [YES NON-STOP] to Denisha and to the left, the annoying boys who cannot stop kicking my chair and sticking stickers on us.

Nasi ayam as usual.

And bla bla bla, lucky draw bla bla bla, the end πŸ˜€ It’s a happy event because we went for Chemistry class after that.

6th October 2009

Which is Mr. Tan Kean Jie’s birthday and the day we went karaoke-ing and terserempak with Ooi Jie and his girlfriend and I don’t know who else.

Our lunch!! πŸ˜€ As usual, I think I eat and drink more than I sing =P Ya ya I know I’m not the best karaoke companion in the morning -_-

Yan Yee! She must be really stress after trials =|…

We looks so emo. Must be singing some emo songs.

Dancing Queen :D… Okay, I think, Nano is the only semangat one =S

They sing…

We snap photos and don’t attempt to act cute ’cause we are already cute enough πŸ˜€ And don’t comment anything about my looks -.-, I looks like… I’ve just woke up or something =|

Sin Yee, Nano and I.

Sin Yee, Nano showing off her birthday present [The Bag] from Yan Yee and Sin Yee and Yan Yee! πŸ˜€

Did you all realize that Nano and I are wearing the same T-shirt?! πŸ˜€ That’s my birthday present to her this year!! πŸ˜€

And… Happy Halloween! πŸ˜€ Whenever it is! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

~*~

Earlier on, I was surfing the net and randomly Google-ed Taylor Swift [Because I love her!!] and happen to read about a news about her break up with Joe Jonas.

Taylor Swift!! ❀ πŸ˜€

Yes, I know! It’s an old story and I’ve not read it before. The whole thing actually made me go ooooo and ohhhh now I knooooww! But then usually when I read something about whoever is going to divorce or whatever, I’ll just read and not believe 100% because sometimes, there will be some behind the scene scenes that you will never ever know.

❀ !!

The part of the article that made me laugh for a moment was this:

… she holds up a Joe Jonas doll and says, “See, this one even comes with a phone, so he can break up with other dolls.” [They broke up over the phone] Then she holds up a blond doll and warns it, “Stay away from him, OK?”

Click here to read more.

And I went HAHAHA for a moment, yea I know it’s not funny if you are the one involved. Okay, now I think I know why people laugh when I say angry things, maybe I say something like that also.

A Small Part Of Her Life

EDIT: I’m so sorry for all the misunderstanding caused to all my friends/readers about the term SCHOOL [Yes, it is Sunday Class, something like school for Handsome Blogger?] in this post. It is partially my fault for not checking the terms clearly first before allowing it to be published. So, thank you Helen, for pointing it out! πŸ˜€ -Hugs!!- [Yes, this is Samantha! πŸ˜€ ]

And the second thing is, all post filed under guest bloggers, are heavily edited by me. So don’t feel surprise la like why every guest blogger is using the ~*~ symbol or whatever that sounds like me. I’m not trying to say that it’s my trademark or whatever, but then I’ll just explain because there is one friend of mine who was kinda confuse.

~*~

*Cough* Okay, here I am, the Handsome Blogger who FFK-ed the owner of this blog to blog a few weeks ago. Sorry la girl :P, nah, I compensate, this is the completed post :p.

~*~

So, everyone, hello! I am the Handsome Blogger, another close friend of Samantha. Everyone has been writing about Samantha and I am going to write about how Samantha and I knew each other. Everyone described Samantha in a happy and cheerful manner because that was how they first saw her as. And as for me, I’ve seen her in a totally different way πŸ™‚

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There was this new girl who came to our school and when she walks into our class, there are just oohhh-s and ahhhh-s going around because they are curious of who is the new girl. I remember her first self introduction ever was this:

Hie!

Ah, now you want to ask why did I remember it so well? =) It is because, she is the first girl in the class who walks in with her hair all tied up, wears a huge T-shirt with a pair of jeans and sandals. And she is also the first girl in our class which none of the guys are interested with her at all.

As usual, the teacher asked us to be friends with her and sure, no one did though she did try to mix around. And she sat down all by herself right at the back. She was teased, laughed at by some girls for no apparent reason [But now I think, it is because she is different], made fun of but still, she kept quiet and put on a neutral face expression as if it is something absolutely normal.

Trust me, if she’s ever in love with a guy in the class [I’m not sure?], and the guy happens to be her best friend and is dating someone else in class, it’s gonna fit part of the lyrics in You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift perfectly.

She wears short skirt, I wear T-shirts.

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers.

But now, we all know, Samantha wears short skirt and high heels :).

Samantha is the girl in class who does all her homework and had often get them done perfectly and she is always misunderstood by others because she doesn’t mix with anyone else. She just sits behind there all by herself, living away in her dream world and not talking to anyone else. Yea I know, unbelievable, but believe it.

I’ve never once approached her or to say hello to her because she have this very egoistical face expression which was automatically switched on when she entered the class after the first two weeks of school. And I always remember how when the teacher in class asked her to read from the book, she would read very nervously and so softly until you can’t actually hear her. So most of the time, she was made to read twice or thrice until she looks like she’s gonna cry anytime soon.

If we are all made to do a presentation, she would be the first in class to drop her jaws and then when the day comes, she will bumble, fumble and stumble her way through [It’s a wonder that she doesn’t skip classes]. I remember how she looked like when she was told that she should be like the other girls, who can speak with courage, confidence and eloquence.

I still remember her first presentation ever because it was like hmm… seeing a girl walking nervously to the front, staring at everyone [and most of the girls in turn giggle at her], trying to find her words and wondering what to say/what is there to present and in the end, being told off that she is definitely not made for public speaking or debate or anything like that and then everyone will look at her and she will just smile and walk back to her seat feeling all relieved that it’s all over.

When I tried to approach her, she’ll just walk away and she won’t even smile to me or anyone else in class. When I tried to talk to her, she’ll end it quickly and then go elsewhere alone. When I tried to pull her in our conversation, all she did was she gave us a smile, stood there and listen and did nothing else.

Every break time, everyone is with their own friends and she’ll sit down, all alone, reading and writing. When I approached her and asked if she wants to join us, she gave me a warm smile and said no. In fact, I wasn’t the only one who approached her. To sum it up, she rejected everyone’s offer to play a game or to talk.

It was until one day, where we had this compulsory school camp and for the very first time, she attended. And that was the very first time, I talked to her and that was after 2 years of observing her in class.

Me: Hey, do you need any help to carry your luggage?

Samantha: *Cold stares* No thank you. [Super cold respond]

Me: -.-!! Okay. Bye.

Samantha: Bye. [Super cold voice]

And the whole time in camp, she sat down alone and dream the day away. She refused to talk to anyone, when someone made fun of her, she’ll just keep quiet, sit down quietly and act dumb, as if no one has actually said something.

It was until one evening, when we are having dinner and I saw her sitting at a corner alone. It was then I walked over, sat in front of her and talked to her properly. Initially, it was obvious that she didn’t want to talk, but then later on, she sort of opened up a little :).

It is easy to understand her but the sad thing is, people just don’t take their time to understand her but to judge a book by its cover. I don’t mean everyone in that class is mean to her, just certain people ya know, but to her, it doesn’t matter anymore. Though she do talk to people sometimes, but you just know, she don’t belong to their group.

In the 3rd year, Samantha came as a transformed girl. She no longer wearΒ  huge T-shirt, jeans and sandals to class, but she wears short skirt and high heels :). Everyone in class was staring at her including me. She looks kinda awkward but sure, she looks good :). All the boys in class for once, turned their heads at her, but the girls in class made fun of her more than ever and I think that was the reason why she reverted back to her old style.

In the 5th year, on the first day of class, she came with a whole new image. She wear high heels higher than any other girls in class and no, shirt and skirt are not more revealing =) But, she is much prettier compared to when she first came to our school. She had more confidence then, but you know, she is still stumbling to find her words and courage to speak up.

She then remained and kept quiet in class. Until the 6th year, which is also the final year, we had one final camp and she came by force. I talked to her and realized that she was still rather reluctant to talk to me. But the whole time, I insisted that we both should talk and I thank God that I did; because I didn’t, we wouldn’t have been friends till today =).

Everyone that has written about Samantha, has seen her cheerful and bubbly side. But as for me, I have never seen her being cheerful and bubbly throughout my schooling life with her. If she laughs, it will just be for a few seconds and then she’ll have that neutral face expression again. Overall, in everyone’s opinion, Samantha is this girl who is not cheerful, hard to approach and egoistic and in my opinion, if they have been nicer to her, things wouldn’t end up tragically for her.

I remember in the camp, we are all given a piece of blank A4 paper and we have to write about how we feel on that piece of paper. We’ll then paste it on the wall so that everyone can read. Guess what, she pasted up a piece of empty paper and it was a shock to all the facilitators but no one said anything but to view her as a problematic and secretive girl.

I remember clearly, after that event, everyone was to take their bathe and go for dinner. After dinner, I saw her sitting down alone by the badminton court, watching the sun setting slowly. I sat beside her and she was surprise to see me. And this is our very first conversation:

Me: Hey, what are you doing here all alone?

Samantha: Nothing?

Me: So you want to join them over there? [I am referring to our classmates who are having their dinner]

Samantha: No, but go ahead if you want to.

Me: Actually, why is your A4 paper empty?

Samantha: Because it’s empty la.

And it was so obvious that she didn’t want to talk to me at all. So, throughout the whole camp in camp, she was actually all alone and you can be sure that she is the happiest person when the camp came to an end :)… Then, we both graduated and left the place.

I’ve never heard from her ever since and I saw her after a few months and we talked for 30 minutes [For your information, it was the longest record that she talked to anyone of us in class]. I was very surprise to know that she went for National Service [Hence, the disappearance]. When I told her that no one probably knows that she went for National Service, she replied curtly:

Good la.

What is so good, I don’t know :)… But then, when our conversation ended, I asked for her number, E-mail address and she added on with her blog URL and it shocks me a lot when I read her blog. It’s like WOW~ My classmate whom ever girls regard as snobbish and cried in camp a few times and the girl that never smiles is such a different person actually πŸ™‚

Then I know, she isn’t who I thought she was. We did find some time and chit chatted and I realized that she is actually a very nice person and as I get to know her, I get to know some of my classmates’ ugly side. When I ask her why didn’t she stand up for what she thinks is right, she just shrug it off and said:

Well, I’m used to it.

From what I’ve seen for myself and heard from her, I just realized that all this while she is just plainly and clearly hurt with what some people in class have done to her. Though she don’t appear to looks like one who will feel hurt just because you’ve ignored her, I think she does and I think she is just keeping quiet sometimes.

The other day I had a good chat with one of our schoolmate and when I mentioned Samantha’s name, she smiled and said – Yea, I remember her. The quiet quiet one in class, very hardworking, studious and umm… somewhat my friends and I don’t like her. And I never know why, but I can guess why.

Only this year, we became closer to each other and I get to know more about her; that is how I agree with what the other two friends of hers wrote about her πŸ™‚

~*~

And so, this is the story of Samantha πŸ™‚ A part of her life that perhaps no one has ever expected it to be.